so since I turn 21 in ~30 minutes.. my gift to myself this year is to stop minimising how I feel to people, to stop neglecting to tell people when they’ve hurt me, and stop explaining away why I feel how I feel.
going from talking to someone every day to talking to them not at all is word and strange and I don’t like it. I’m genuinely sad things are over. & that I won’t be spending my 21st with him.
“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.”
I feel like every time something crappy happens I’m always asking my friends am I allowed to be upset and I’m wondering if that’s a personal thing or how we’re all conditioned… but I feel like there are some things I’m not “supposed” to be upset about or “allowed” to be upset about (maybe it’s bc I’m not “actually” dating someone or whatever) and I just get frustrated and don’t want to seem like I’m over reacting (or reacting at all).
I don’t even know how much this matters because I seriously never tell people when they’ve upset me…